Some random thoughts about our days……

I have been doing a lot of thinking about what has been going on over the last couple of months, and how we are all affected.

All of our current news circles around the pandemic. What the statistics are. What the politicians are saying, and doing about it. What the repercussions of the social distancing, the stay at home requirements, and the economy as it sits now with the drastic change in business due to temporary (and in some cases permanent) business closures.

Most of what is affecting me in a more mental capacity is essentially that the plans that gave me something to look forward to, are amended. They are postponed, cancelled, and a good part of my world needs to realign so my expectations about what I can look forward to and thus get joy from, is altered.

This really brings to mind a movie I saw years and years ago called “A Family Thing” with James Earl Jones and Robert Duvall. The one thing that struck me was a conversation the two main characters had about giving people something to look forward to. That it was a purpose to give your loved ones something to look forward to.

Essentially, so many things that we look forward to, which could be as simple as going to the corner store for a loaf of bread, has changed. We cannot forecast if those things that we were looking forward to, planning, seeking, will be tangible, possible in the near future, far future, or what they will even look like.

So… I’m trying to realign those things that I look forward to. Trying to give myself something to look forward to. I am pretty thankful for those things in my life that bring me joy and I am very grateful for many things right now. I am also trying to get myself thinking about how I can give others something to look forward to. So… working on that. And, an occasional glass of wine.

Wishing everyone stay safe and healthy. Looking forward to when I can next get together, spend time, break bread with my family, friends, associates and all in all good people in the world.

The Elf went and hid…

And tried to focus. With some semblance of success. Presents were completed, wrapped, presented, and opened. I’m still recovering from the flurry of activity.

I spent some time being present. With family and friends. And more family. I really did enjoy some time being somewhat unplugged. I am thankful to those friends I got to spend a few moments catching up with. And thank you for commenting on my blog. I really appreciate it. I also appreciate knowing that I am not alone in my own manic life sometimes… and that we all struggle with similar things.

And now, I am forgiving myself. For not living up to my blogging every day this month. I am trying to be okay with not living up to some expectations I projected on myself.

I have been reminded several times recently that whenever I feel like I am getting some things off of my “list” (and I will expand more on that list in a moment), that I rapidly add at least one or two or ten more things onto that list. Boy, am I ever worried about never being bored. Ha! My list contains a number of “projects” – between finishing block exchange quilts, finishing projects I have decided I must do for friends and family, and other things I want to do for myself. I have not physically written that list for a long time. I have not included such things on the list like clothes I would like to make for myself.

Nor do I include the brilliant idea I had this summer of doing pickled carrots for everyone this year for christmas. Now, that would have been great. Garden got in a bit late. Planted a TON of carrots. They came up late. Was not a hot summer, so really, did not grow very well, but still had an admirable crop. The slugs were the absolute worst this year. Like I swear, if prairie escargot was a thing – I could have served it 10 times a day and still not made a dent in the slimy invasion. I did go out and salt the slugs one day. I was deriving great pleasure from their demise. Not the best solution, but a small victory. And, the dill I planted for such wonderful pickles? The slugs ate them. All of it. It was sooo gross.

So.. that “project” was not on the list. Guess I should put those things on the list, and then consciously decide that some things are not possible. Or, just cry uncle. I know when I am not going to meet a deadline, and learn to cut my losses as to what is not possible when time is running out. To top it all off, I am either adding too many things to the list that are not even possible of achieving, or enjoying procrastination way too much. Am I scared of not having enough to do? Not sure. Maybe it is all about my life’s purpose. Either way – I am obviously weighing myself down with unfeasible expectations.

So…. Instead of doing anything that serves as productive tonight, treated myself to watching not one but two episodes of “The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel”. I am loving the show. And, tomorrow, maybe I will figure out more to do with …. the list.

Wishing you a good Sunday sleep…..

Elf Tools….

One of my elf tools is my HQ Sweet Sixteen sit down long arm quilt machine.

I haven’t used it for a few months. Been busy with a lot of other things it seems, so it was nice to get to it even just for a little while tonight. I put a different thread in (I was using Glide thread for this piece) and left the bottom thread as the colour was fine for the muslin on the back. (I have Bottom Line thread in the bobbin)/. Put a bit of oil in the bobbin case. And, started off.

So.. as you can see from my finished results – I was fairly happy. My tension was pretty good, and even though I don’t have a stitch regulator on my machine – I was pretty happy with my stitch length. A nice feeling to think I can still sit down and free motion quilt a bit….

I still need to do the other top for the second meditation cushion, but the first one is quilting.

Elf signing off for now. Furry elf in self imposed jail again. Seems to be his happy place……

So my one lone helper elf has fur

And is not so helpful.

Yup – not much happened tonight on the Christmas gift front. But… lots and lots of good intentions! Ha! I’m on that road paved with good intentions. Lol.

I still have illusions of getting things completed before Christmas. I mean – there is only 9 days left – right? Lol. Things will happen as they should….

And, I need to plant in my subconscious some things to mull over while I am sewing / creating. What do I want the next decade to look like? What do I want the next year to look like? And…. how do I get rid of this extra mound of waist that 51 has graced me with? Well – some of that is easy to answer. Eat less. Be more active. And, carry less emotional baggage.

I will have you know I worked hard for that emotional baggage. I packed it up and sewed a special bag for it. The bag is purple and orange. And has lots of pockets. It is good for more than just a weekend. It’s going to take awhile to unpack. But, I know that will in itself render me lighter – at least in the mental sense.

Anyways, off to dream about how I can get Charles to do something other than sit on the pieces of stabilizer. I know they keep his butt warm, but really…..

And I just wanted to share one special tree that I put up every year. One of those I’m great memories I have that I cherish.

Where is the army of elves when you need them?

Oh yeah – I forgot to place my order for elves early enough. Lol. And, also had a bunch of bright ideas last minute for things to do for christmas.

I did get one thing done today – I made a fabric bin. Thinking it will be great to give gifts in….. Almost cat sized. The reason I reference that is that I stepped away from my cutting table a few times today, and it is covered with the ingredients for a few projects. The meditation pillows for instance. The tops are together, and I have to quilt them yet, and then piece everything together. Well…. this is what I saw when I rounded the corner this evening….

Then I have a number of the fabric bins cut out and the ingredients for them are at a different part of the table. Yup – cat butt print on those too….

So… I saw that Charles decided to put himself in self-imposed confinement…. just for a minute. Never a dull moment with that polydactyl fur face.

The projects I am making are both from Amy Butler patterns. The link for the meditation pillow is here: Now and Zen Pouf Amy Butler

The other project – the fabric bins – the link is here.Amy Butler Ultimate Storage Bin

Neither project is particularly difficult. The instructions are very clear. And well written. No complaints from me.

One of my final accomplishments of the day was the tree. I love getting the tree up. I could sit by the tree for hours and look at it and revel in the lights, and the magic of it.

Less Elfing Curveballs, More Elf Laziness

It’s Friday the 13th. I’m feeling a bit exhausted by all of my self-imposed expectations. So.. chilling tonight. Going to hit the sewing machine hard over the next week and a half…. I’ll try to post pictures of my progress…

It’s cold outside, and still snowing a bit. I’m finding sleep makes more of a difference to me. And, being more aware of realigning my expectations of the world around me, and my reactions to it.

So… breathing a bit and watching silly Christmas movies. It is probably my favourite time of year for many reasons. It is a reminder to me to be grateful. To be a bit more forgiving of others. Less getting offended by things. And more willing to adapt to what life throws at me. So… With just over 2 weeks to go for this year… I want to start actually solidly planning some things for next year.

What will your upcoming year / decade look like?

Think I’m going to let my subconscious ruminate on this tonight….

Elf out…..